The notoriously shy Virgo

If there's probably one thing that i can blame myself for, that'll be being so awfully coward in love. It's hard to admit this but it's true. I've been single all my live. I never dated, i never do anything connected to dating maybe i don't even know what's dating. I'm reaching my 20 years mark this year and it really sucks. While all teens get the chance at experiencing their first love or boyfriend, i've to be the one sulking and dreading the forever alone state i seems to be in. I never receive flowers, chocolate, presents from guys, i never get confessions, In fact i might just think that no one will EVER like me. I guess it's also me, i'm a little conservative and too cautious. My friends joked that i have this huge barrier like a filter that filters out men i think are not worth my time.
Although i say that, i'm partly to be blamed too. I never wanted to take the first step to confess my feelings nor do i have the guts to do it, maybe its cuz i'm afraid to be rejected. As they say, Virgo's are famous for being shy and i'm not denying it. I have a few Virgo's to prove it too.
Yesterday I saw this very cute guy sitting opposite me in the library and once again, I let that chance slip through my fingers cuz i just can't bring myself to do that. My esteem is on the line and i really don't wanna hurt it. So that's why i've been single since for as long as i can remember, which is almost reaching 8 years mind you(of course for the first 12 years of my life i didn't care about being alone) I don't really get any say about liking to be single, i was forced into it. Me and my non existent love life. And now i'm worried i'll turn into an old dame while EVERYONE around me seems to be having a life and i don't. 
So don't blame me when i get really emo and grumpy when i see couples saying lovey dovey things on their facebook wall. If they want to do the pda through facebook, why don't use chat instead of posting it as a status. It's taking a toll on all single people's esteem. Sheesh!!