Challenge accepted

Have you ever just look at a particular thing and just fall in love with it. No matter what people tell you or try to convince you about the bad side of the thing, you just stubbornly love it no matter what they say. I have experience this recently. I have fallen in love with Sony Ericsson Xperia Arc S. 

They say it's outdated, they say there's better model than Arc S such as Xperia S or whatever other model that comes after it. I don't care, I just love the thing. Love at first sight? Maybe, but it's probably the product placement factor. I mean, well, I've read reviews. Its a good phone with good function, of course i won't like one with bad reviews. Yes, of course it lacks some stuff compared to the newer models but well, it's decent. 
My own family has been convincing me that I'll change my mind about Arc S, saying that i'll like the new phones with better function. Do people really have to buy the latest gadget? Is it to show off or what? Is there a reason to liking something? When you like a thing very much, it doesn't make much sense. Like how a girl falls for a boy that't obviously bad for her, or liqueur to an alcoholic- just an example of my point. Well, i've fallen for it way too much to change my mind. Outdated or not, I want it. So i can just say, CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!!! 

New advantage of heels

The "Crazy" invention 

Of course heels are like an essential accessory in fashion and it just feels like you're not a woman if u don't have a pair of heels. And because of these perception, heels are very popular. I mean yeah, some of them are really pretty, i love pumps and wedges, oooh and boots and gladiator heels. I find wearing wedges the best, they're undeniably more stable because of their larger surface area. But there are also unbelievably high and impractical platform heels courtesy of Lady Gaga's style and other ludicrous inventions by weird designers. Well, the only reason they came up with it was only cuz someone is crazy enough to wear them. I do laugh at those people but at the same time salute their bravery for not being afraid to look ridiculous and not being afraid to fall flat on their faces and break a teeth or two or twist their ankles. If you want to die earlier, go ahead, wear like Lady Gaga. No one is stopping you.
I'm personally a sneakers, slippers and flats person. I love heels but i just can't stand or walk in them for more than a few hours. As pretty as they look, lets just face it, they're not the most comfortable thing to wear. And YET, they're not cheap! For a simple looking thing it already cost around 100bucks sometimes. Why pay to torture yourself? Seriously. But anyway, that's not the point of this post right?
Apart from the classic, looking good in heels and using it as an assault weapon to sexual harassing perverts, there is one more advantage of wearing heels. I knew it only today when i attended a talk, it sounds legit. 
So, the speaker encourage woman to invest in at least a pair of heels. Why? Because wearing heels can not only make a woman look professional but it actually help you look confident. The logic in it? When you wear heels, it makes you straightened up. Your shoulders will automatically pull back and of course your chest will move forward so making you look confident. In a way it helps the posture. Does it sound logical enough? I think so.

Modest heels

But of course when you buy a heel you don't have to buy those very very high one's. You risk falling down and getting foot and tendons problem in the long run, don't believe me? Go google it! For beginners, wear moderate heels and practice before leaving the house, you don't wanna look like a chicken walking in heels. And make sure you find one pair with a larger heel that provides larger surface area for stability. For the love of God, don't wear kitten heels. The feet of the poor innocent person who you accidently puncture with your heels will be utterly painful. OUCH~~~
As long as you don't wear it the whole day and if possible, take it off when you're not walking (includes when you're at your work desk, car and other appropriate places, you'll be fine. Maybe only a little sore and peeling but other than that fine. I find pure comfort when i slip out of my heels and into my slippers after coming back from my campus (I only use heels during presentation).
That's all i can say about heels, hope it helps.

Hopeful songs

I don't believe that someone can go through life without a day of sadness or just plain bad day. Now, i will have bad days for most days in a week especially these few weeks where presentation and assignments are cramped into one deadline. Then everything seems to go wrong for me, I can hardly find space to breathe. Usually, people would think that Daniel Powter's Bad Day is the ideal song for my situation but i don't really think it is. 

It's funny but sometimes its not necessary songs which has vocals in it. Be it instrumental or just the music, it gives me some hope that things wouldn't be like that forever and there's a glimmer of hope that I can get through things without bloodshed. Some anime songs for example, are simply without anyone singing yet the music can lift your soul. That's what it means to have hopeful songs.

Everybody has their own style of hopeful songs, some Christian songs, Anime OST, Korean Ballads etc. I'm fine with all types actually. But i do prefer Korean OST or Ballads, it's often soulful. It helps you know. I always feel a bit more encouraged or at least in a better mood after listening to some songs that i find hopeful.

Here's a list of songs i would listen to if i need some encouragement:

Hashimoto Yukari- Startup (Toradora)

Hey! Say! - bon bon.  (Lovely Complex)

Deok Hwan- I'm going to see you (Queen In Hyun's man)

Deborah Lurie- Dear John Theme (Dear John)

Alan Silvestri - Forrest Gump Theme (Forrest Gump)

Selah - Be thou near to me (Jim Brickman Album)

Saiunkoku Monogatari Album

You can check it out and see if it also gives you hope and encouragement at times. ;)

Short Story 1: Candy

She always had candies with her. Whenever she's with someone, she'll whip out her box of colourful Sticky candies and offer them. She's who everyone will turn to when they need to satisfy their sweet tooth. I never gotten the chance to talk to her. When she first came to my school, she's this bubbly ball of fun, wearing the most funky and colorful dress. It looks horrendous on others but it suits her personality well. Since the first day, finding friends never seems to be a problem to her since she quickly attracted many people's attention just by her looks alone. I seem to be in a total opposite world compared to her. 
Today I saw her sitting alone by the benches listening to her ipod while chewing on jelly beans. Plucking up the courage i've been building up for months, i decided to take a shot and approach her. She looked up from her ipod, smiling at me and i felt my whole world coming to a stop.
"Hi, you're Randall right? I'm Candice". I nodded, surprised that she even knew my name. She held out a hand and i tentatively took it. The surge of electricity that shot through my arms the moment her skin touched mine was so addictive, like the candy that she always offers.
Like the idiot I was, all i did after shaking her hands was to sit next to her and kept quiet. We watched the field of students in front of us, soaking up the sun that so rarely surfaces. I heard the clanking of a hard object against metal and turned towards her. She held out a box of jelly beans, "Want one?". I took a few and popped them into my mouth, feeling the mixture of berries on my tongue.
"You always have candies around you. Do you love them?" I asked, curiously. She looks a bit shocked at my question but answered me.
"Not really".
"Then why?".
Her beautiful blue eyes met me and the sun choose that time to shine down on her, creating an illusion that made her eyes sparkle. She smiled sheepishly, "Can you keep this a secret?". I swallowed as she leaned in closer and winked, "To tell you the truth, it's my secret bait".
"A bait?"
"Yup, a bait for making friends like you. It's hard to fit in here so i thought, Who would reject a nice candy?"
I laughed, this is the girl that I thought had no problem making friends. We would get along well from now on, I just knew it. I hoped we would stay like this forever.


***My attempt to write a short story. Sorry it's doesn't really make any sense, I've been out of practice lately. But still, this just randomly came up in my mind so i wrote it***

Why be a vampire? Why not?

I used to be a Twilight fan (well, maybe i still am) Not really. I got over it already. Once i used to get annoyed by those snide remarks about the book and movie, now I'm not bothered so i guess i'm over that phase now. Don't get me wrong, i'm never a fanatic fan of the actors and actresses or the character. I was a huge fan of Stephenie Meyers for her writing. The storyline is original i guess and the sparkly part might be a bit overboard but the others are fine.
Now, what I find interesting is how these vampire novel's authors can come up with the idea's of making the vampires so perfect -white teeth, swift, beautiful/graceful and even sparkly. They make it sounds like being a vampire has it's blessing and curses at the same time. It's intriguing for me in fact.
Alrighty, why being a vampire is a good thing? I'll based it on what was written in novels. You get:

1. The beauty: Remember how EVERY author seems to say that vampires are beautiful creatures that always manage to mesmerise their victims with just a smile (a perfect smile to be exact). Human's are always vain creatures so of course you want to be beautiful and have people admiring you. I'm not saying all people are like that but i think most people are. Smooth & porcelain white skin, the perfect proportioned body, long lean legs and arms - it's every girl's dream. And perfect muscles & great abs for the guys. Don't have to worry about getting fat, now that is just paradise. Now who wouldn't want to be perfect?
2. The speed: I do admire people who are so swift at doing things. I mean who wouldn't? It's a plus point that you won't get tired even after doing work that are meant for 100 men. I can think of plenty of things i can go with the speed, travelling back and forth from class for one (and i save cost ;) ), doing assignments and other boring stuff that can be done in a short time, i can even skitter in and out of my lecture hall without being noticed, pick up stuff i drop before it hits the ground and bla bla bla (the list can go on and on).
3. The abilities: This is rather subjective, depending on which you read. Some don't have abilities, some do. But of course it'll be great if they really have abilities. Just think of what being able to see the future alone can do, i'll can avoid doing things that i regret. Mind reading is fine, controlling elements (it's a bit too uh.. fantasy, not rlly possible)? but you get it, having the abilities is great.
4. The wealth: You have forever to live and while you do that, you accumulate money since you don't sleep too. When you have money, you can have everything you fancy (lets just face it, money can buy almost everything-almost) I can think of plenty of things to do with centuries of wealth - private island in Bora bora, castle in scotland, villa in tuscany equipped with home theatre, pool, game room, jacuzzi, spa....... and a vineyard (since vampires are known to be huge fan of wines), Like this i won't even mind not being able to see the sun. Then there's the fast & cool cars, shopping in Milan etc.
5. The senses: Being human and having human senses pretty much sucks compared to vampire senses. Sight for one is enviable (I would love to trade in my glasses for a pair of vampire eyes), smell is fine, improved hearing is a blessing, the others i guess it's okay. 

There's still other advantages of course like staying young forever but the five main points that I've mentioned is what i admire the most about being a vampire. Well, there are also things i don't admire them for, in fact i pity vampires for having them such as having blood diets. There's so many scrumptious delicacies in the whole wide world, why limit yourself to blood? Isn't it gross? The smell of iron i mean. Second, although you get to stay young forever i don't find it good. I don't want to stay forever on this planet and see people destruct themselves. I mentioned before, I would rather be dead when the world ends. And lets face it, vampires are monstrous creatures, i don't want to be chased and killed in a excruciatingly painful way (i rather die in my sleep). Talking about sleep, that's another thing i don't envy. I LOVE sleep so to not being able to sleep is hell. And since we're on the topic of vampires, let's talk about their arch enemy -Werewolves. Now i don't see any reason why being a werewolf is good, they don't have as much advantages as a vampire and what they have, the vampires has them too. Why walk on 4 when you can walk on 2? No, i don't see any good in being one. So far from most fantasy author's point of view, the world consist of just 3 creatures - human, werewolves and vampire. I've read books which mention fairies, witches and stuff. Being a human with a witches ability is great too (Except the witch hunt) and being a fairy is just plain cute, but no thanks to all of it. So my conclusion is, yeah I'm happy being a mere puny human with no abilities and talents.
I guess that's just about what i can say about the good and the bad of Vampirism. It's not like i really believe that there's such creature but with so many stories like Twilight, Vampire diaries, True Blood, Fifty shades of grey and others, you can't help but get caught up wondering if they do exist. 

Time Travelling drama

Time travelling films used to be pretty unique and interesting for viewers. I remember "Back to the future" was one of those classic time travelling movies that is still garners attention. So much attention that the korean film industry also started making films like that. I don't remember the first Korean time travelling film.
I seriously don't mind Queen In Hyun's man cuz it's just such a great drama, they did well with the organization of the time travelling medium and stuff. Plus the drama is just perfect! I love it.
Rooftop prince was one of those successful time travelling genre films so okay. But what's not okay is the why more and more of the likes of it are popping up like wild mushrooms in my backyard. I'll give you few new one's : Time Slip Dr Jin, Faith including Rooftop prince and Queen In hyun's man, oh and Operation Proposal . These are just the recent one's.
I mean yeah, of course, its still interesting now cuz it's new and they use hot actor and actress. But in time, it'll eventually get old. I mean even i get kinda bored already. While the storyline always manages to mystify the viewers, the story is always still the same. Travelling back and forth and there's romance then there's always one ending either good or bad. The good, the protagonists will be together OR not.
Yeah, that's just my opinion on the recent film "trends". There's no harm or course, it's just me, easily getting bored. Enjoy the drama anyway!
      
    

I need a Change

Remember those boring neighbours or friends you have who did the same thing over and over again everyday for every year?  I used to think they have such a boring life and pity them. I have been thinking about myself lately and i realized in horror that I AM one of those too. Everyday waking up going back and forth from class, feeding myself then sitting in front of the laptop every night, surfing the net. On some occasion hanging out with friends. Other than that nothing much. I have been living on the same routine everyday. Geez~!! 

I thought this is really meaningful

Then i realize the main reason, I am afraid of change! I live by following the rules and following others, i never stand out, I never have an opinion of my own, all because i was afraid of the changes that would bring if i do change. I'm afraid of making things worse. Right now i'm going with the flow, living it because it make me secure, i feel stable. If i make a sudden change to my routine, there's definitely going to be impacts-whether negative or positive i don't know. Of course being the pessimist I am, i would think of the worse so I won't want to risk my stable and secure life now. Well that too, is why there's always a lack of excitement in my life.  If i was more of a risk taker, I wouldn't be studying in this small town with nothing much but mountains and lake. I would have taken the risk of studying in my ideal place like idk, switzerland? And i would have been touring around enjoying Europe while i study. Then I would also have a bigger circle of friends since i won't be afraid of the changes. 
That's the major problem with me, why am I like this? I tried to change, I really do. And i succeeded a bit. However there's still no significant changes. The changes that I want to see. So i was wondering day by day when will i EVER get over it and make the change. Because I'm sure the day I'm able to take that step towards changing, my life wouldn't be so dull and uninteresting.
It all depends on me doesn't it? My, i'm pressured by myself. How ridiculous~~~~ 

The HEAT!!!

Darn it's hot these days. Global warming? Definitely but i guess for this small town, it's cuz of the haze. I can't even see the mountains from here. I feel like melting like an ice cream in a desert. it hadn't rained for weeks and i mean literally, I have to be drenched in my own sweat everytime i awake from my sleep. Like this afternoon, with the fan on full blast, i still wake up all soaked. The constant hammering and drilling behind my house isn't helping at all.(Rich spoilt kids getting their air-con installed). Even the water from the shower is hot, unbelievable! At night when it's suppose to be cool, my room feels like a freaking sauna and me idiotically staying in it. In the morning, it's cooler but still humid. I can't exactly strut around in bikini's.

I need air-con, uh no, better yet! Sent me to a place with winter! You wouldn't believe if i tell you it's summer all year round in my place with just a few months of tropical rain. Sure it sounds ideal for beach goers and tanning but no thanks, i'd rather freeze to death. What i wouldn't do for a little rain now. I wouldn't even mind if it rains till its flooded. Just get this heat wave over already!!! 

Patience overload

When it comes to patience, i know a lot. And i mean REALLY a LOT~ In fact i might just think i live for the sole purpose of being patience. Which i don't think i can take it any longer. For 20 years i've endured through bad situations through patience and I say now that it is reaching it's limit.

There's this phrase, "Good comes to those who wait". I've been waiting and waiting and waiting AND waiting for years, hoping God will grant me a small wish. It really isn't that hard to make it a reality but no... it still never came true. I saw a post once on facebook saying the reason wishes don't come through at time is because God is going to give you even better than you wished for. I've been patient enough, waiting for the thing to come true. But still, i'm waiting. My time is precious here, i'm getting older by the days and i just can't believe that i already made it through 20 years of life. I just wish i don't have to wait that long, it's been too long. I promised myself not to think about it but being alone in a room without anyone to talk to, i'll automatically think about it.

I don't have time and actually i don't really need it. I want to have my fair share of the earth then just die, i'm not going to stick around and see the future generation ruin themselves and i seriously don't want to stay and wait for the world to end (which is very likely is a few decades)

So if you are really listening dear God, you know my wish and i'll tell you now that i'm getting edgier waiting for it to come true. It's irritating to be patient all the time.

My acting skills

So i just did a half an hour sketch as a presentation today and boy was it tiring~ i slept for hours as an afternoon "nap" and still feel tired after waking up. Who knew that waking up at 8am and screaming your lungs out can make someone so tired. Anyway, i guess i portrayed my character as an ungrateful spoilt brat quite well with my acting skills. At least i feel that i did, so's my other team mated too of course.
My family used to say i'm such a drama queen cuz i love to exaggerate things, i guess maybe i am. Tho i think partly due to the fact that i'm the youngest and therefore the most uh... overly dramatic one.
well.. now that the important part is over, i just wanna sit back and relax with a cup of Macchiato roasted milk tea. :)