I need a Change

Remember those boring neighbours or friends you have who did the same thing over and over again everyday for every year?  I used to think they have such a boring life and pity them. I have been thinking about myself lately and i realized in horror that I AM one of those too. Everyday waking up going back and forth from class, feeding myself then sitting in front of the laptop every night, surfing the net. On some occasion hanging out with friends. Other than that nothing much. I have been living on the same routine everyday. Geez~!! 

I thought this is really meaningful

Then i realize the main reason, I am afraid of change! I live by following the rules and following others, i never stand out, I never have an opinion of my own, all because i was afraid of the changes that would bring if i do change. I'm afraid of making things worse. Right now i'm going with the flow, living it because it make me secure, i feel stable. If i make a sudden change to my routine, there's definitely going to be impacts-whether negative or positive i don't know. Of course being the pessimist I am, i would think of the worse so I won't want to risk my stable and secure life now. Well that too, is why there's always a lack of excitement in my life.  If i was more of a risk taker, I wouldn't be studying in this small town with nothing much but mountains and lake. I would have taken the risk of studying in my ideal place like idk, switzerland? And i would have been touring around enjoying Europe while i study. Then I would also have a bigger circle of friends since i won't be afraid of the changes. 
That's the major problem with me, why am I like this? I tried to change, I really do. And i succeeded a bit. However there's still no significant changes. The changes that I want to see. So i was wondering day by day when will i EVER get over it and make the change. Because I'm sure the day I'm able to take that step towards changing, my life wouldn't be so dull and uninteresting.
It all depends on me doesn't it? My, i'm pressured by myself. How ridiculous~~~~ 

The HEAT!!!

Darn it's hot these days. Global warming? Definitely but i guess for this small town, it's cuz of the haze. I can't even see the mountains from here. I feel like melting like an ice cream in a desert. it hadn't rained for weeks and i mean literally, I have to be drenched in my own sweat everytime i awake from my sleep. Like this afternoon, with the fan on full blast, i still wake up all soaked. The constant hammering and drilling behind my house isn't helping at all.(Rich spoilt kids getting their air-con installed). Even the water from the shower is hot, unbelievable! At night when it's suppose to be cool, my room feels like a freaking sauna and me idiotically staying in it. In the morning, it's cooler but still humid. I can't exactly strut around in bikini's.

I need air-con, uh no, better yet! Sent me to a place with winter! You wouldn't believe if i tell you it's summer all year round in my place with just a few months of tropical rain. Sure it sounds ideal for beach goers and tanning but no thanks, i'd rather freeze to death. What i wouldn't do for a little rain now. I wouldn't even mind if it rains till its flooded. Just get this heat wave over already!!! 

Patience overload

When it comes to patience, i know a lot. And i mean REALLY a LOT~ In fact i might just think i live for the sole purpose of being patience. Which i don't think i can take it any longer. For 20 years i've endured through bad situations through patience and I say now that it is reaching it's limit.

There's this phrase, "Good comes to those who wait". I've been waiting and waiting and waiting AND waiting for years, hoping God will grant me a small wish. It really isn't that hard to make it a reality but no... it still never came true. I saw a post once on facebook saying the reason wishes don't come through at time is because God is going to give you even better than you wished for. I've been patient enough, waiting for the thing to come true. But still, i'm waiting. My time is precious here, i'm getting older by the days and i just can't believe that i already made it through 20 years of life. I just wish i don't have to wait that long, it's been too long. I promised myself not to think about it but being alone in a room without anyone to talk to, i'll automatically think about it.

I don't have time and actually i don't really need it. I want to have my fair share of the earth then just die, i'm not going to stick around and see the future generation ruin themselves and i seriously don't want to stay and wait for the world to end (which is very likely is a few decades)

So if you are really listening dear God, you know my wish and i'll tell you now that i'm getting edgier waiting for it to come true. It's irritating to be patient all the time.

My acting skills

So i just did a half an hour sketch as a presentation today and boy was it tiring~ i slept for hours as an afternoon "nap" and still feel tired after waking up. Who knew that waking up at 8am and screaming your lungs out can make someone so tired. Anyway, i guess i portrayed my character as an ungrateful spoilt brat quite well with my acting skills. At least i feel that i did, so's my other team mated too of course.
My family used to say i'm such a drama queen cuz i love to exaggerate things, i guess maybe i am. Tho i think partly due to the fact that i'm the youngest and therefore the most uh... overly dramatic one.
well.. now that the important part is over, i just wanna sit back and relax with a cup of Macchiato roasted milk tea. :)

T-ARA controversy

I guess those K-pop fans have already heard the recent scandal involving T-ARA's Hwayoung. It's even much more of a bigger news that Nickhuns accident. So this is what went down, it is reported that the other T-ARA members are bullying Hwayoung and this got really serious that their agency terminated Hwayoung. Few parties has already came out to confirm this. Now, whether it is true or false, i really don't know but there is a high chance that it's true. Why? I'm not going to say that celebs are the most innocent being, in fact they feel the superiority of being up on the social ladder, that makes them more arrogant than others. Well, when you're famous and one of the most popular idol group in K-pop culture, you'll tend to let fame overwhelm you. You can't just stay the good-girl-next-door forever, in such a aggressive industry you'll learn to blend it and if everyone is doing it, you'll tend to follow suit. If you go against the norm, you'll get discriminated instead. Of course the thing's they do are really shameless and mean but that's up to their conscience to decide. Karma will bite them back on their tiny arse. :)

Celebrity marriages

I shall make it clear, i will never trust another celebrity marriage ever again. Just when you think some of the couple will last then news will surface that they're separating or walking out of after what looks like a perfectly fine wedding. I seriously don't get these people. I'll give you a few examples, Tom Cruise & Katie Holmes, Peter Facinelli & Jennie Garth, Heidi Klum & Seal and the list goes on and on~~~~   Then now, I even heard one of my favourite couples - Miranda Kerr and Orlando Bloom are having marriage troubles. Sheesh!! Next thing you know, Jennifer Garner & Ben Affleck, Victoria & David Beckham, Gwen Stefani, Gwyneth Paltrow bla bla bla are also divorcing. Geez!! i don't get it! 
These celebs are contributing to the divorcing rate of others, cuz their "Idols" are divorcing as a method of getting out of a problem instead of facing it. They are spoiling the meaning of "MARRIAGE". It's suppose to be a sacred institution where two person are united in a holy ceremony. Where are the promises of "to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part".

What about the children? They'll follow after their parents or, they'll be afraid to get into a commitment themselves. Next thing you know, wait, it Is already happening. The whole society is a wreck. That is why, i'm really VERY sceptical when Miley Cyrus & Liam Hemsworth are getting married. 

Don't even trust those dating celebrity who say they're so in love they're gonna be together forever. Yeah right, next day they'll say they split up. Look at Kristin Steward and Robert Pattinson. Uh huh, i'm still waiting to Selena Gomez and Justin Beiber to split.

Hollywood is a world full of scandal. They're blinded by fame and fortune, they think divorce are easy. Bull~

Don't ever ever get involve with 'em.

In Hyun couple

      

Lol~ it took me some time to understand what In Hyun stands for. Now all hail my new favourite couple, Yoo In Na and Ji Hyun Woo, combine In and Hyun you'll get In Hyun couple, what a match to the Tv drama "Queen In Hyun's man" that bost of them co starred in. Well~ as i mentioned in the post before this, I commented on the great chemistry between this two and wait for it~ they have good chemistry even off screen. How my heart soared when i heard that both of them are indeed dating.
Towering at almost 188cm, Ji Hyun Woo made a public love confession to In Na during their "Queen In Hyun's man" fan event. Of course nobody actually thought he was that serious but its touching that he told her that he never wanted anything more than have her as his (He claimed never to want anything from anyone since young). In Na was also clearly a bit smitten by it and she finally announced that they are in fact dating on her radio show. Well well~~ i've been waiting for this. Told cha they were cute even on screen.
Ji Hyun Woo actually sings very well (I only know now) and he plays the guitar too. oh surprise surprise, a man with many talents can always impress a girl. Actually he looks a lot like Rain but i think still better looking. The first time i saw him in QINM, i thought, meh, he's not that good looking but on close inspection he actually emits this charm when he smiles. MEH~ i take that back, he is charming. :) Oh his smile can take your breath away (or its just me, or in na) Of course he's no pretty boy like all those pop idols these days but what we need nowadays is not pretty boys which sadly, my university is full of them i feel so sick looking at them, but REAL manly guys like Ji Hyun Woo. My university desperately needs a dose of these attractive guys not justin bieber wannabe's. <Shiver> Anyway, they do look good together don't they?

But the bad news is he'll be leaving for the army soon and she'll have to deal with his absence for two years. I really hope they make it through, it would be wonderful to see them together in wedding attire in the future but lets just leave it at that. ;) oh look at them, doing all those couply stuff even during shooting. Let's just hope they keep up this chemistry. I'm sick of those who get together just for media's sake.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-9qlssXXqQ&feature=related (Watch the confession here! ;))

Queen In Hyun's man review

                   

THIS is one great korean tv drama. The best I've ever watched (I guess) I highly highly recommend it AND as my friend will out it, a great movie especially for single ladies like, sadly, me. Well, its full packed with romance and historical details. I'm not just biased talking cuz i really love Yoo In Na since watching Secret Garden, this is really good. I was addicted to watching it even tho i knew i had more important things to do. I got sweetness overdosed by this two in the drama cuz they are just plain adorable. It's rather cute, fun and sweet romance for these two and much different from the typical emotional teary korean drama like Winter Sonata and BOY! can Yoo In Na cry. All those scenes where she had to cry really really hard cuz she thought her lover was dead, my heart also aches for her. Which is why i can see a whole bunch of tissue in my bin by the time i finish watching.

To cut to the chase, here's the synopsis. Kim Boong Do, a scholar from the Joseon era (300 yrs ago) received a mysterious Talisman from his then "wife candidate". He realized that this talisman transported him to the 21st century of modern Seoul when he is in danger. This is where he met Choi Hee Jin, an amateur actress who just made it big by playing the role of Queen In Hyun (Kim Boong Do swore to protect his queen from danger-btw, he's not in love with her). So of course it's weird travelling 300 yrs to the future where there are cars, buildings and phone. He had to learn to adapt to this new world everytime he travelled to his future. Then another thing leads to another thing and both of them fell in love. The most heartbreaking part is at the last when he was forced to leave 2012 and back to his world cuz his "wife candidate"(the one who gave him the talisman) got killed. Then there's all the tear jerking part and i was left wondering if they'll ever see each other again (knowing korean's love for sad endings like Nicholas Sparks). Of course they got their happy ending, don;t worry. SO WATCH it~  I really fell in love with them.

Oh! How cute are they? >XD

It's so cute watching Boong do learn about new things and Hee Jin is just so freaking adorable. And their chemistry is good. There a quite a lot of kissing scene's but it's so sweet to me and each of their reunion promised something that will melt your heart. This is one drama i don't mind rewatching over and over an over again. Oh yes, it's that good. Maybe it's just my taste. Boong do is really intelligent and it's fun to see him learn about handphones, cars and modern era of "greeting" methods. And the background music is just a perfect just PERFECT match to the situation. I love the ost as much as i love the drama.

This is Yoo In Na's first drama as the leading actress and she did really well. Cheers to that. The history part i don't really understand but well, i'm not in for the historical part just want to see the two of them together.

The things he does for her will always make me swoon and my neighbours probably think i'm nuts, laughing, giggling and crying in the middle of the night while i was watching this.
Anyway~~ I know i've said this too many times already. But i'll say this again anyway (my friend would kill me for repeating) haha~ Please watch it and i bet you'll fall in love with the drama too.

Just an update on me

After weeks and weeks of hectic schedule, i can finally breathe just a little-JUST a little. I really hate rushing for assignments and reports and those bloody midterms in between doesn't help at all. I still can't relaxed yet, there's still presentation and not to mention, finals coming up. Suddenly the reality just hit me. No wonder they say you get more stressed out by the years in college, i feel that now. Sigh~~~~ try finishing up a report in one night without sleep, or work from 8pm till 5am and still had to get up for class at 8am. That is one hell of a life. That is why even if i can just catch a nap, it'll be a gift from God. 
I decided not to participate much in clubs or society if i want to stay alive, between juggling study demands and leisure demands (from society) mind you, I rather just focus on the study part. I can't do this anymore, club activities i mean. Gimme some sleep and i'll give u my social life! (well, not really) Hah~ now i'm sprouting crap. Anyhoo, the reason i've not been updating is just of my bloody busy schedule. Now its partly over, i'll try to do what i can. 

YouTube singing: Internet sensation is IN

What's a good song? I might say one that is able to make your hair stand on ends, one that can sometimes make you overwhelmed and excited. What's a bad song then? Well, i can make you plenty. Sons's sang by Nicki minaj's, Justin Beiber, Super Junior etc are some that I hate the most. Since i found that song's nowadays are getting worse and worse to my ears I decided to just revert back to listening to old songs. But wait~ old songs are also getting a bit repetitive too. Try listening to new songs again and I just don't like it. So I listen to youtube singers like Jayesslee, Victor Kim, Chester See, David Choi, Tiffany Alvord etc. They cover songs from other singers and it's really good. I find it refreshing from the original one's. Chester See's sometimes gives us something more different, he makes his own songs. I find it much more worth listening to than Justin Beibers and you wonder why that gay boy is more famous? What? Cuz Chester is half asian? Racist! Anyway, song like Safe and Sound in the movie Hunger Games, originally by Taylor Swift. I think Julia Sheer does it better.

I just LOVE Jayesslee. They are twin's from Australia(Korean) and MY they're voice is amazing and they are really talented. I spend an hour listening to their concert video's until 3am last night. And i still can't get enough of them. Many of the songs are much better sang by them. I regretted not going to their concert the last time they were here. They shared their testimony which was really touching and meaningful. There's this one part where I wanted to share with everyone. They were sharing about their mother's battle with breast cancer. During her mother's final moments with them, their mother told them to rejoice not to be sad. I mean, your mother is dying, how can you afford to rejoice in the Lord? Then their mother sang a Christian song. Surprisingly, they can rejoice. Why? Janice(One of the twin) shared this:

"It is so hard to find one reason to be thankful but still being able to be hopeful and have joy. That's what it means to rejoice."

When she shared their testimony, I'm not going to deny that I didn't cry. I went through almost the same situation as them and I never rejoiced that much. Anyway, I really think that you should listen to their testimony yourself. It's really meaningful. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1j6bxhlgXkU&feature=related
And recently Sonia(The other twin) got married and it was beautiful.