Sunday 14 April 2013

Feeling sorry but glad

Have you by any chance come across a situation where you must move forward even if it might hurt others? Most of the time we do it for our own benefits and some people might get hurt along the way. Making the decision to do something is hard. You think of the consequences and you feel scared of it. This is what most people face when making a life changing decision. You're scared of risk, scared of not knowing what might happen. I know the feelings - the insecurities. It's like driving down a secluded cross roads, not knowing which to choose and feeling scared of what awaits at the end of the road. At times, knowing that you'll hurt others and yet still making the decision to do it, you feel guilty and sometimes you wish you can turn back time. But if you don't make that decision, you'll never know if there are better opportunities waiting for you out there. It might be bad and it might be good, whatever it is, we should be more brave and take that step forward. I've told myself to be more adventurous, don't be a coward and strive towards what's best for me. However, i didn't follow my own advice all the time.
This time it was a bit different for me... I had to do it, i have no choice. Staying here right now, in our position, nothing is gonna change. Unless i take that necessary step forward, we'll both be stuck wondering what to do till the end. It's nothing drastic, nothing bad. A simple act that could hurt a feeling. But it's for the best. We can move it on like this. I seriously can't see this going anywhere so I might as well end this constant doubt and make a decision. I can move on, they can move on too. Let's not waste our time.
I've been staring at this quote on my wall the entire time, it says : Don't waste your time looking back at what you've lost. Move on, life is not meant to be traveled backwards. Its a wise quote. It's true. 
I can't change the past and i can't change how i acted but i don't regret. I'm moving forward and i feel sorry but I'm glad I made the right decision. I know, there will be a better future waiting. I've learnt to take my own advice and be more brave. Because if you are not willing to keep your options open, nothing new will come to you. Another quote from my wall: You can't start the next chapter in your life if you keep rereading the last one. I can't make any changes if i keep making the same mistakes too. We should learn from our mistakes. Making changes, feeling insecure and seeing the results of our decisions. If you made a bad decision? It's okay, keep calm and do what you can do. The world hasn't end. Your road cannot end there. If you waver at the little bumps on the road towards your happiness and dreams, you'll never get there. I will do the same now. I will not hesitate. If i have to go, I'll go. 
So take the challenge, take the step forward. Move on... It's normal to feel sorry but at the end, you'll be glad you took that step.