Sometimes I wonder why some people has to make a big deal out of birthdays. Some can explode into fits of rage when people forgot their birthdays.
For years, I just go through my birthday doing normal routine stuff. No extravagant parties or even special night outs. I wake up some days and forgot how old I was.
Partly I guess my family never seems to remember and from young I always had to remind them. Maturity is the time where birthday isn't a big deal anymore. Or my birthdays has been terrible for years so I just naturally expects nothing or expect something horrible to happen.
I've spend my 19th or was it 20th birthday in a hospital, taking care of my injured grandma. Spent half a day flying across the country back home for the semester break, by the time I got home, I'm just too tired to give a damn. Every year has been an uneventful birthday that I tend to just forget. Even if I remember, I just live my day as any normal days. Nothing special.
Believe me, I once actually forgot my age, I had to minus that year with my birth year.
In fact, birthdays are sad. You grow older, more responsibility, knowing you're one year closer to death and for my case, you're just not significant enough for people to remember your birthday.
All those brats out there who expects a grand celebration for their birthday will only be more greedy, expecting more the following year. In the end, they'll end up disappointed and throw a fit.
As for me, expecting nothing for my birthday and if someone miraculously wants to give me a surprise, that would be another wonderful memory to add.
