Friday, 20 April 2012

Studying, Exams, Holidays!!!

In a week now, I'll be sitting for my finals AGAIN. Makes me feel so tired just thinking about it and suddenly feeling older too (not that i feel any younger each day). So what am I doing a week before the big test? Well, I don't really know what other normal college/university student would do but i can tell you this, I'm doing a lot of other stuff rather than stay cooped up in my room with my head glued to my books and notes. Now to my defence (if my parents happen to see this) I'm NOT saying I'm fully enjoying life without bothering about studying for finals. God knows if I am. But anyway, it's just that, studying all day long can prove to be even tiring than running the field for 10 times (for me anyway). I'm definitely not the type who can sit still and study which is why I always change position when I study, from the table to the chair and to the bed then on the floor then back to the table. You get what i mean. Like that at least I get to study comfortably. I set my schedule like this - study in the afternoon, computer at night.
I refuse to stay in my room if I get to hang out with my friends even if exams are close (unless of course I get struck by huge sense of guilt- and its pretty often when finals is few days away) So okay, I'll only get serious when the real thing is near. During the time when I'm preparing for finals, my mind would always wander to the holidays ahead after few weeks of torturous mind wrecking papers. Imagine, lounging at the sofa at home watching TV with no worries of assignment, presentation & midterms aaaaah~~~~ paradise. Food? No problemo, get the keys, drive to where you wanna eat. Not to forget, I can spend time with my dear pooch! ;) so yeah, can't wait for the holidays.
When finals is finally here, that's when i get really serious. No hanging out, no computer (i actually lock them up so i dont have to see it and give in to temptation), study with little breaks in between. I usually sleep after each exam so my mind get to rest a bit and i get to relieve those pressure. During this crucial period, I will feel very vulnerable. Every little thing makes me mad, emotional and troubled. Yes, i turn into an emotional & unreasonable monster. It's the feeling like the whole world is against you when you learn that what you wrote in the exams is wrong but you actually know the answer. Uh huh~~ Finals to me is like world war II (tho i don't know how it felt like that time cuz i wasn't born yet)
After finals is the best feeling someone can ever feel. I would feel so relief, like a huge burden was lifted. NO more feeling frustrated or emotional. No pressure and all. Suddenly you feel like you can take on the world, you feel happy at everything and anything. Years ago, i would feel like singing 'What Time Is It?' in High School Musical but now that i think about it, it's rather gross(it's like singing Justin Beiber's song). I'd rather sing "Just dance" by lady gaga now. :D
Then there comes the packing to go home stuff, during that time I feel even happier. But when i'm in the airport waiting, that's when i feel frustrated again. In the plane, I feel happy again. Landing at my hometown airport, I feel like singing Tik Tok by Kesha (but of course i only hummed). Weird mood swings eh? Well... that's what i go through every time. My style of going through finals. So, what's your style?
Just a little something that I think is so true.

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